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After IUI #1 didn'’t work I was extremely upset and lost hope in the chances that it would work for us. I went for my pregnancy test, even though my period had started. It sure felt like insult to injury. I also needed to get my medications to start the next IUI cycle. When I sat down in the blood lab, the phlebotomist who I had gotten to know fairly well told me that she thought I might have to take a month off. They had missed the window (AGAIN ) for my safety bloods.

I went back for my afternoon appointment and it was confirmed that I had to wait. In the grand scheme of things once extra month is nothing. However, when you are in that moment it feels like such a huge blow. It was one more month further I was from my goal. So, we waited out one cycle and completed our 2nd cycle of IUI during September. This included more daily trips for blood work and ultrasounds. I was making very good friends with almost everyone on the staff. Everyone at Cooper Center for IVF is now like family.

The waiting began again and to no surprise, it was another negative. I was obviously upset, but tried to take it in stride. The worst part for me was that I had lost all hope in IUI working for us, but had to finish the final one in order to move on to IVF. Our final IUI was in October. We had to wait forever on the day of our procedure and the nurse who did the procedure spent the entire 15 minutes she was in the room talking about Saddam Hussein and terrorism. It felt like the cherry on top of such a wonderful experience . We waited out that cycle and again received another BFN (Big Fat Negative). I felt a little hopeless at this point.

The next step was to set up an IVF consult with our RE and move on to the final step of the TTC process. We had to wait through all of November and met with Dr. C on December 16th. To say I was scared out of my mind is the understatement of the year. Where they going to tell me I wasnÂ’t appropriate for IVF? What if we canÂ’t afford it? What if I have to wait for months and months more? What the hell was going to happen?