Here we go again... (and again and again and again)

I think I posted that after I got pregnant, the donor program at our clinic accidentally put our name on the latest version of the donor list. The day after I found out about the miscarriage we also found out that someone had picked us as their first choice. Well, it is official... we have matched and we decided to move forward.

So, last week I started taking birth control pills to suppress ovulation and regulate my cycle after the miscarriage. I will start taking Lupron injections in two and a half weeks. Thirteen days later I will start my stimulation medications and our IVF will be in mid-September. It is hard to believe that we are back at square one again. It just feels like deja vu all over again. I am surprisingly optimistic about our chances this time. They say that after you get pregnant it is easier to get pregnant a second time. I am hoping like hell that this is true. It will be a bumpy ride, I still cry almost daily about losing the baby, but we are so ready to be parents. I think this is what is best for us.

So between now and September we have to scrape up the dough and get ourselves emotionally ready for the roller coaster ride to begin again. Buckle up your seatbelts folks...