This evening I went to Target because my husband (who I have been asking if he needs anything for vacation) ran out of shaving gel and of course needed it immediately. Being the nice wife that I am, I volunteered to run out and get it. I made my way through the store getting this and that. Was mildly irritated by a young woman with a little baby who was too busy picking out her cold medicine to pick up her screaming newborn.
When I made it to the checkout I noticed that the girl in front of me in line was someone that I graduated from High School with. She was there with her young son and appeared to be pregnant with another one. I couldn't help but feel so jealous. I hate saying hi to people I haven't seen in years cause you know what the first question is. "Do you have any kids?" I hate just saying no, like we don't want any; but I really don't like to explain how we are infertile either. So, when I get out to my car I see her loading her kid and stuff into a nice SUV. Meanwhile I am still driving the same piece of shit car from college. I drove home feeling so crappy. She probably has a house and nice things. Why do some people get so much and others so little. To boot, she wasn't really a nice person when I knew her. Just another reminder of all the things I haven't got. By 28 I sure thought I would have a few more of my goals checked off...
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When you have days like that, try to think of all the great things you do have that other people could be jealous over. You have a great marriage, a strong support system from your family, an incredible education and job and a great circle of friends. (At least I hope you think we're great!)
It's hard but when that green-eyed monster appears you have to find ways to kill it. And you never know about that girl -- she could have a horrible marriage, a husband she never sees and the new baby could belong to the mailman! LOL
((hugs))
All I can say is, I hear ya. Oh boy do I hear ya. =o(
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