Will we or won't we

At the beginning of any IVF cycle there are so many things to be done. Paperwork to be signed, appointments to be made, prescriptions to fill, etc. When you donate eggs, it makes things that much more complicated. We have additional legal paperwork, which requires signing in front of a notary. I have to have cultures, blood work and urine tests for the FDA. Bry has to have blood work, a semen analysis and urine cultures.

Perhaps I have become more cynical in the past few months because of what we have had to endure, but it seems like when you are the donor you are second rate to the recipients. I am smart enough to understand that they are the ones paying the big bucks for all of this. I am just the person giving away my genetic material. It's not that I feel like the couple themselves feels this way, it's just the office.

I am waiting to find out I will be starting Lupron in two weeks or waiting til next cycle. The holdup is that the coordinator that I work with is on vacation and the recipients hadn't sent in their medications yet. Now, they put no pressure on the recipients to hurry, but if I am missing a test or a piece of paperwork, they hound me. I just feel like the whole process does a wonderful job of beating you up emotionally.

So when the hell will we start, I don't know. When will our IVF be, no one bothers to tell me.