Alright, so I realize that my blog has gone "soft" lately. I also realize that posting pictures and video 85% of the time is totally weak. Throughout the day I will have a thought or an irritation that I make a mental note to blog about and by the end of the day *POOF* the thought it gone. So many of the blogs I used to read have become some focused on their kids (who I have never and will never meet) that I just don't care to read. I hate that my blog has become "one of those". I think some of it is purely about not wanting to offend anyone. Bitching about being a Mom knowing that so many people who read are still struggling with infertility. Bitching about being a wife when I have a great husband (ok, great 90% of the time and a PITA the other 10% :D ). Bitching about being freaking exhausted by "having" to work at home when I am freaking lucky to work at home. Bitching about being sad or blue or overwhelmed when my life is so much easier than so many people. And then there is bitching about having twins. I don't know why but NO ONE wants to hear you bitch about having multiples. Either you are "lucky" and should shut up about it or "you asked for it" by doing IVF or people compare their kids who are a year apart to your twins (so freaking annoying and SO NOT THE SAME). So I try not to bitch about these things, but that's my life. I get overwhelmed. I get pissed off. I get nothing done some days. I want to holler at my kids for knocking the lamp down for the twelfth time or biting her sister or kicking the dog. I want to scream my lungs out when I have been stuck in my very small house for too long.
So now my job is to find the balance. Not too much bitching but not so many cutsie stories about my adorable kids. Barf!
I just wanted to say that I promise to my faithful readers who have been with me through thick and through thin I will make a concerted effort to have a juicier blog. To give more of myself. To let you in on the real me. Somedays it's dark and ugly and some days it's just boring as hell (oh yeah, did I mention that having kids has made my language worse not better... another post for another day). :D
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3 comments:
It's your blog, girlfriend. Talk about what you want.
I think that many of us struggle to find a balance on our blogs after overcoming IF (ie. having a child). I don't want to segregate readers that are still struggling but being a mom is a huge facet of my life now. It affects everything.
The faithful ones will always read. I promise.
I agree with Mandy - It's your blog... This is your life now... You should be able to blog about anything that you want to blog about... Just being able to get your thoughts and frustrations out might prove to be a little bit of a relief for you... We're all ears (and shoulders to cry on)... :-)
I agree! You write about whatever you want...and I will keep reading. I love to hear about the girls and what new things they are doing, etc. As a mother of 2 boys, I love to see what it's like for you with 2 girls. Keep it up!
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