Recently I was texting with a friend on a weekend night and she was out on the town while I say in my jammies with the girls and the two boys watching baseball and hanging out. For some reason it made me a little sad. It made me think of the life I had before I had kids. The one with fancy dinners, nice clothes, thinner thighs, straightened (and CLEAN) hair, high heeled shoes and nights on the town with friends. I also thought about how I could probably leave the girls with Brian some weekend and go hit the town with some of my old friends. The ones who are still "cool" and don't have kids yet. The problem as I see it is that I have feel like I have somehow become irrelevant as a non-Mom person. What the hell do I have to talk about outside of my kids, my work or my family. I have no idea what is going on out there in the world of the "cool" people. When the hell did I become an irrelevant Mom-type person. I swore I would never become that.
I just have this vision of me sitting in a bar, my hair not quite right, my "coolest" of clothes not being quote right and me feeling completely out of place. I used to know all the best places to hang out on a Friday night. Now those places are probably crack dens as everyone has quickly moved on.
I know that I wouldn't trade my life for my old life for ANYTHING it's just weird to think of how much my life really has changed in the past 5 years. I'm not sure if I met the old me I would recognize her. What I do know is she probably looks a hell of a lot thinner, cooler, put together and RESTED than me. :D
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Did you look inside my brain and pull all of that out? Seems we are feeling the same way these days...wanna come to Chicago for a weekend and hit the bars? ;))
Christina - Hell yeah I do. :D I am guessing leaving my kids alone and running to the airport wouldn't be the best idea though, huh? ;D
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