Inspiration for Moms

Something got me to thinking lately about how through my life I have had various sources of inspiration. When I was in school I always had higher year students to look up to. My teachers, my coaches, my professors, my mentors. Every day in college and grad school was a new concept. A new way of thinking. A new way to challenge my mind and think in new directions. Once I joined the working world I had colleagues and bosses and people in journals doing amazing and inspiring things. If I sat in a meeting with other therapists the would come up with ingenious therapy tools and techniques. The scientific journals I read would fascinate me with new treatment modalities. The people I had gone to grad school with were sources of boundless tactics I had never thought of.

Even in those early days of parenting I had my books, I had the mother in my head that I aspired to be. That was inspirational. I knew where I was headed. I knew who I wanted to evolve into. As I become a slightly more "seasoned" mother (can't really think of a more appropriate word right now) I wonder where my inspiration comes from. The annoying "do it all" moms who have their two-year-olds overbooked? Moms I read about in books or magazines? The celebrity Moms who I cannot relate to but are all over every magazine?

I guess maybe I feel a little uninspired. Like some of that zeal gets sucked away because there is not a specific goal or aspiration other than be a good mom to my kids. Sometimes it feels like spinning ones wheels. Maybe this isn't coming out quite as eloquent as I had anticipated because it is tough to put into words. I think I just long for that feeling I used to get when I came out of a lecture that really moved me to think differently. Almost as if in that moment in time it had slightly changed me. I need some of that type of inspiration.