I am in a buddy group and in this past week a couple of my "buddies" families have been blessed with new nieces and nephews (either born or on the way). It got me to thinking about something. I have one niece and two nephews and another niece or nephew on the way. Through all those pregnancies and newborn babies my family was never allowed that excitement or joy over these new people. My older sister was in high school. My younger sister has gotten pregnant all three times under bad circumstances.
I love my niece and nephews but they are more like my children than anything else. I have to discipline, do homework, take care of when they're sick and deal with the stressful stuff.
My younger sister is now expecting (again unmarried, again to a man who doesn't love her, again because she wanted to trap someone she thinks she loved) and I will have a new niece or nephew and all I can feel is fear. For what this child's life will be like. What circumstances he or she will be born into.
I can't help but feel a little robbed. When do I get to feel excited? To have a baby in the family that I can spoil and love and SEND HOME when they get tired and cranky? I feel like I am missing out on that part of life.
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I am sorry Kris. I didn't mean for my announcement to make you sit back and look at Genna and the boys and feel like you have missed out on something as an aunt. They are so fortunate to have an aunt like you in their lives :o)
That's a toughie. I too feel that everytime I am with my nephew I need to do something to impart some kind of life lesson in him that he will never get from his dad when all I really want to do is take him to McDonalds and buy him the latest, coolest video game and let him eat chocolate in bed.
Does this mean it's up to me???
Tim - Hate to say it man but you got some kids to produce so that I have someone to spoil!
Meg - Don't feel bad. A little introspection is good.
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