I spent the better part of my afternoon today going through my attic. My sister had asked me if I had anything I would be willing to "lend" her for her baby. As you know this is not a simple case of having a pregnant sister. Instead I have a mentally ill sister, pregnant for the 3rd time with a third guy who is emotionally and verbally abusive and she allows herself to be in this situation. Anyway, I digress (yet again)...
I decided that I would be the bigger person and since she cannot afford much for her child I would contribute as much as I could. So I went through all my old stuff and put aside about 2/4 of it for her. Let me just tell you how difficult that was. Not the simple PITA act of going through the attic, going through bag after bag of clothes, sorting, etc. The pain came in going through my girls things and giving them away under these circumstances. When I sadly packaged up the girls tiny baby stuff I always assumed I would get pregnant again and get to bring it all back out again. Here I am bringing it all back out to give to someone who doesn't know how to be a mother, who doesn't really WANT to be a mother.
I know I am doing the right thing but it doesn't make it any easier.
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Kudos (and hugs) to you, as always for being such a great person. I only wish she understood how lucky she is to have you as a sister.
Thanks guys!
M - You give me too much credit. :D Just felt like it was was I SHOULD do... despite not really wanting to. I know you know what I mean.
That's probably what makes you so different from your sister, Kristen. Even though you didn't really want to - you did. She probably wouldn't have. Even though you had the "I don't really want to" thought you still went through with it out of the goodness of your heart. You are a great person...
Thanks Nichole... said with teary eyes. It isn't easy giving when you feel like screaming. Makes me feel like I should be smiling and MEANING it. I guess I will keep smiling in hopes it will wear off on me. :D
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