My other sister

As you all know my younger sister is both an emotional mess and about to become a mother for the third time. The two don't blend well together but there is little I can do about it. The baby (a girl) is due on Monday so we expect her arrival anytime. My sister is no less of a mess than she was when she began her pregnancy. Our family had hoped that becoming a Mom, and having to do it herself this time, would help her to get herself together. It didn't work. So it has been a bit of a roller coaster ride for my sister, my parents and my niece and nephews.

Just as we are about to "brace for impact" for this next chapter my other sister dropped a bombshell. She is pregnant too. She is not nearly the mess of my younger sister but she is (self) admittedly not in the most stable place. She is in recovery. She has a sometimes rocky marriage. She said it was a shock. She didn't plan it.

I am a little in shock. Not the stomach aching kind of shock I was in when Kate announced her news, but shocked nonetheless. I have to be honest and say that infertile woman in me is screaming a little on the inside. I want another child. So does my husband. We just want to try to time things right. We waited this year because of Kate. We didn't want to put the big kids through any more adjustment than is necessary. We were starting to have the talks again. The girls start school in Sept. and the timing is getting better. It just still pains me that it is SO INCREDIBLY HARD for us to get and stay pregnant while it is so easy for my sisters.

It should be interesting. All these new little people brought into these not-so-stable environments. It scares me a lot. It is hard enough to do this parenting thing when you have a house, an income, a spouse who you can lean on, etc. I can only imagine doing it under less than ideal circumstances.

I guess all I can do is pray for the best and hold on for the ride.