High BP... big shock

I went for my annual doctors appointment this week. I hate going. It's always the same old, same old. BP is a little higher than it used to be. (Although I am NOT afraid of doctors I have a bad case of that white coat syndrome. The nurse takes my BP and it is always normal. The doc comes in and it is always borderline.) Weight is higher than it used to be. I look tired. Yadda, yadda. I'm really in it for my prescription for thyroid medicine. I think if I didn't need regular medication my doctors visits would be fewer and father between (I know that's not a good thing, just the truth).

This year was a little more irritating than usual. First I was berated for not getting the swine flu vaccine. Of the people I talked to I believe about half got it and half didn't. So making me feel like an off ball for NOT getting it annoyed me. We moved on to my BP. She said it was a little higher than usual for me. Big shock. I need to lose weight. I don't manage my stress well. I had spent the morning at CHOP and waited 2 + hours to see Abby's doctor. I had had nothing but 3 cups of coffee at 2pm. What bugged me what her plan. Instead of taking my BP with a cuff every hour she said she wanted me to get fitted for a 24 hour monitor through a cardiologist basically because she fears I won't be terribly honest with the results. This really pissed me off.

I know I should watch MY health better. I should put myself first more often. But I am not a stupid woman. I would NOT jeopardize my health. Not sure what my motivation would be to lie about my own BP. I left the office with my synthroid script in hand and the vow to myself that it is time to switch doctors.

In the meantime I am going to borrow a cuff and take my BP every hour and a couple of times throughout the night and keep record of them. I am not willing to have a stroke if it is something is wrong but I would like to feel like I am a part of monitoring my health, not being dictated to like a child. Grr...