Nerves

I think the nerves have officially gotten to me about Gracie's surgery. It's routine stuff, I know. We have done this routine already with Abby. I just can't help but feel the nerves this time... oddly a lot worse than I have when Abby has "gone under". Maybe it's because Grace has never been under anesthesia... maybe it's the fear of her SPD rearing it's ugly head in a bad way at the hospital. Maybe it's just the normal nerves of a Mom whose kid is going to have surgery. I don't know...

I keep finding myself thinking "why can't it be me? why can't it be me?" I know everything will be fine and she will recover easily but I JUST FEEL NERVOUS!