not the news i wanted

i met with the surgeon (who, for the record, was as jerky as you would expect from a surgeon) and the news was not good. the reason my finger broke so easily was because the bone has a tumor inside which hollowed out the bone. he showed me the x-ray and the inside was almost hollow. this was obviously not the news i expected. when he came in the room and said you have a tumor i (half-jokingly) said 'no i have a broken finger. (no one laughed, except me in my head.)

i now have to wear a giant splint to protect the bone from shattering. it was molded to my hand to be much more protective than the last one. since last weeks x-ray the bone had degraded more. either from a bump or from the tumor scattering.

anyway, in 8 weeks i will have surgery where they remove the tumor and replace the missing bone with bone from my wrist. at that point the bone will have to recover then i will start occupational therapy. (which almost feels like a sick joke after almost 3 years of ot with the girls.) so instead of a few weeks in a splint i am looking at surgery, much more pain at least 6 months of total healing time (between before and after surgery and rehab) and then various bone scans to look for more tumors.

this means months of typing with one hand (I TEACH ON THE COMPUTER FOR A LIVING!!!), not wearing my wedding ring, not being able to straighten my hair or play miss mary mack. i know it could be so much worse. the tumor is benign. that should be the silver living. i am sure it will be but it doesn't seem like much help right now. i am in constant pain and i get to recover just long enough to start over again. SIGH. so not what i was expecting today.