Commodities

Funny how much life can change in a few years. If I rewind back a few years and look into my pre-mommy life things look so different. Commodities to me then were having enough spending cash to go out to frivolous dinner with my friends AND go out for drinks after. They were long Sunday morning spent sleeping, reading the newspaper and drinking coffee in our jammies. They were week night evenings spent playing X Box with my husband for two hours straight. Wow... tough life, huh?

Now commodities look so different. The things I took for granted are now things I miss so much. Long walks. Taking a shower EVERY DAY. Quiet lunches. Putting on makeup every morning. Sitting. Blow drying my hair. Movies. Grocery shopping without two whining children. TV. Listening to what I want on the car radio. Clean shirts. Cleaning the house in under an hour (and having it stray clean ten minutes later). Friends. Cooking a fancy dinner that takes an hour just because I wanted to. Sex (ok, so sorry for the TMI... just being honest here). Having time to exercise or read or think in a straight line. Sleeping in on the weekends.

Man how life has changed.

I am thankful every single day for the life I have now. Right now it is tough but I love it. I love my children, I love my husband, I love my family. I am blessed. But for a few minutes a day I need to day dream about what was.